Wanna dance, Wanna drink 'till you can't stand up.

who even writes in this thing anymore.

2008-09-23T00:48:33Z

so sitting here, lookin back on like the last two years, maybe even four, shit's changed tremendously. i can't even think of anyone who has stood by me this whole time, & that's fucking sad. really it's sad, it's such a shame how people are so fake,unfaithful, unloyal, selfish, careless, & mostly heartless. how can you just forget about the people you " love ". i can go on & list so many people, but i rather not. im just glad i've taken the time to realize who means business & whos really always gunna be there for you, I can name maybe about 5. & to be honest i'm perfectly fine with that. i finally got my life in order, got rid of all the bullshit, booted all the losers, & kept all the people in my life worth keeping. it's much better like that, let me just tellllllll you.

so anyways, after i got that off my chest, let's see work is good. life is good, the boy really needs to come home, hes been in utah for about a month now, one more to go, & i'm dyin, no joke. i have Bun tho & that's my only joy in life, besides the kids. i love them, me & Dev have been getting really close. it's comfy :]

growing up, is a good thing, i think. realizing alot makes you think alot, about everything, just life in general, where you wanna go, what way your headed. not being a loser & just brushing by everything, actually having goals, & dealing with your problems, puting the important stuff infront of you & handling it. it's good, it's real good. im very happy. i love the ones who deserve to be loved & that's about it. i love the person i've become. im prolly one of the most realest
human beings you'll come in contact with, i wouldnt let that go to waste & to the ones who have, bummer on your part.

im done for now.
it might be a while.
later daze :]

missababyx @ 2007-10-09T18:48:00

2007-10-10T01:55:29Z

damn son, it's been a while.
UPDATE:
i still work at red robin, logan left me for ari.
i live with holly & get my licence nov 2nd.
i got a car it's a 2001 toyota camery. silver, i'm excited.
i cant wait for halloween, pary pary pary.
nothign else, thats my fucked up life.

missababyx @ 2007-05-20T12:19:00

2007-05-20T19:25:58Z

this weekend was pretty fun, my cousin zack & his friend mitch came into town from california, friday night we all got fuuuuucked up, wokeup at like 12, logan was already off work. so we got ready & me bun my cousin & his friend went to circus circus. logans bitch ass woudlnt fucking go, so i took bun! we had so much fun, the line for the water ride sucked, but we waited & it was worth it. came home, got fucked up, kt came over to surpise me, we picked up jon, he choked on a rock. hahaha. ummm i took some valumes & went to sleep. logan sucks. today is jons party, i duno if he's still having it, now i'm just typing, i'm going to california soon, i need some time away.

me & logan are going to visit his mom today.. i duno how well that's gunna go over, shit's so fucked up right now. i'm not happy. damn. that's a first ina long time.

missababyx @ 2007-05-14T11:25:00

2007-05-14T18:55:23Z

me & kt got our tattoos finally, we got love in cursive behind one ear & a heart on the other ear.
it's pretty cute if you ask me. it hurt like hell, i was squeezing the fuck out of nick & logan both. hahaha. but for real my wrist hurt so much more. i didnt notice till cammie filled in my banner, oh well, it's complete.

saturday was the most amazing night almost ever, i know i say that alot, but it was sooooooooooooo much fun. & everyone was so fucked up, it was cammies birthday party, & fucking kt didnt get off till 9, so all i did was sit around & wait for her & jon, but the second they came, oh fuck, it was on! logan kt & bun had a xanex bar each. &i took 4 somas with some beeeers, we made a mud pit for cammie so i made kt get in there with me, & all the lil kids were in there, so we had a lil mud fight, well i wouldnt say lil it was a big one cause me & kt were COVERED IN MUD FROM HEAD TO TOE, so we took a shower together, took some shots, lost the bottle, found the bottle took more shots, fucked up germs, & watched pritty in pink wiff our mans.

MY LIFE RULES! & so does my only friend. :]

missababyx @ 2007-05-10T12:55:00

2007-05-10T20:04:58Z

MY FACE IS ALL BETTER. almost. : /
yesterday it was AZN JON'S BIRTHDAY so him & kt came over so he could get his birthday gift, of course an 18 pack of high life, yeah, were good friends. :]
we had a lil party for him, everyone was here. i made cupcakes & put a candle in one for him & we all went out to the garage & sang happy birthday. it was nice, then everyone besides me, kt & dana got drunk. as always, they were here tilll kt's curfue, it was really fun, everyone had a good time, & it was just a really good day for me.

the slip & slide was a failure, but the kids still had fun running around the fludded back yard. i love them they make me so happy. all of them. i'm going to be such a good mother.

me kt jon & logan are perfect friends, we all four just go together so pefectly. i love it, we're going to raise our kids together, it's a fact. where ever me & logan go, they will fallow.

I love my life, it's so funny how you can be happy with so little & it becomes so much. & everyones content. smiles all day long. I LOVE LIFE.

missababyx @ 2007-05-08T11:25:00

2007-05-08T18:36:08Z

sp thursday night, i thought it would be all cool to go to jp's, livi's & eddied's. & help livi clean cause it was a fucking dissaster! well so we cleaned, & all day & then we wanted to get drunk, eddie bought us all beeer. i told him only one 32, but he got me a nother one when i was already fucking past my limit. so whatever, i drink it to have a good time, logan wasnt with me, i missed him, called him to come over, but he had to get up & go to work at 6 in the morning. so okay, now i'm on 2 32's of high life. FUCKING DRUNK, we all were, livi & eddie went in there room to go do it. & it was really fun, till justin wanted to make a phone call, so we walk to the payphone... & on the way back, he insisted on giving me a fucking piggy back ride, & he's tall so i jumped far... & we both ate shit, i ate shit, face first though, & i was the one bleeding everywhere, pulled out my noise ring, had the fatest lip ever, & fucking road rash all over my face. :[ i didnt feel it till the next morning & oh fuck was i hurting.. if any of you guys watch featurama, i can just tell you i lookd like leala, but with TWO eyes.. it sucked, me & logan didnt go to prom dinner with kt & jon, i didnt even leave my bed for 3 days. no tattoo. & everthing else just sucked.

my face is still fucked up, it looks way better my lip has gone down alot.
it prolly wont be healed till next weekend though. whatev, shit happenes, i felt like such a fool jp said i was jumping for shaq!!! hahahah. :[ i suck.

missababyx @ 2007-04-30T11:24:00

2007-04-30T18:42:47Z

friday was really fun, i spent almost all of my day with kt. we did nothing really, drove jon to his therapy, & then kt had to take bloood, omg they took like 12 gallons! i thought she was gunna die, aahah. the chink lady was laughing at me, we got jon, i embarassed him, then we got slurpieeeees, went to kts, got ready, well she got ready, went to red robin so she could get her check, i got the babies baloons, they loved them. then she left. then i don't member what happened. & i promised the kids a sleepover in my room so we all camped out on the floor & watched CARS!! it was cute.

saturday we fucking wokeup at 7:30 in the morning, to go help logans dad do the floor in the spare bed room. sat outside by the poool & played with seth. he's my second boyfriend. i did my nails with nicole, talked to her a bout a lot of shit, she's helping us decorate our appartment. i love her, i got a dress for prom, she let me barrow one, it's pretty cute, logan loves it. i don't even know what's going on with that, but i know i wanna wear a dress. we came home, shit was going crazy i had an emotional breakdown, yes that's what i call it. logan made me sad. so i made him give me 3 valumes. I WAS FUUUUUCKED UP & felling all kinds of better. i ate shit going UP the stairs though, hahah. it was pretty funny. KT CAME OVER & MADE MY NIGHT. we rearranged my room. lazy ass jon just sat there, it was kind of hard for us, hahah then she left. then i don't remember what happened, oh i fell asleep with logan. yeah. :]

sunday was MINE & LOGANS 9 MONTHS! yep fuckers. we did it, & were gunna keep doing it, cause were going strong & happy as ever. :] i went & got 3 job applications, GO ME! & we know where were moving i think, in about 3 months hopefully! i'll be 18 then, yep. anyways, my amazing cutest lil sexy boyfriend took me out to sweet tomatoes for din din, it was bomb, that shit is my favorite, then we went to go see disturbia, SUCH A GOOd MOVIE, i got scared as always. haaha lil whimp :[ oh well, then we came home & had bomb sex. :] the end.

I ABSoLUTlEY LOVE MY LIFE, holy cow. mhm everything is so amazing, & having one friend couldn't be better, as long as she no leave me for someotha thing... yeah that would suck. :D whatev though, we'll be the ones with matching tattoos, yep cammies doing them friday! beat that! aha me funnys.

time to go swimming with the kids & tan my white self.

missababyx @ 2007-04-21T10:58:00

2007-04-21T18:06:32Z

me & katie had the most best day ever yesterday. she picked me up after she went tanning with dana, we went to her house got ready for like 3 hours, dana left. christina came home with her bro boyfriend, HE FUCKING LOCKED US OUT OF THE HOUSE. hahah. & we took " 4:20 " to the next level, we didnt even smoke. but check it out, we wereeeeee fuckiiiiiiin bllllaazzzzed dawg. hahaha. yeah right! we drove everywhere, tried to go to the attic. but some stupid ho tells us you have to have some bullshit pass, or pay a dollar to go in there store. THAT FUCKING PISSED US OFF. so we left, heated. then we went to see livi & eddie at jp's , & almost died on the way, kt over here thinks i can reach the brake with my hand or something? silly ho. anyways, it was so hillarious, no one would understand. i'm just funny, then then it was 4:20 so we had to bounce cause i was taking katie to dinner for her birthday, & our reservations were at 6. we went to the stake house. really we went to jack n the box but befor that we were at my house & painted our nails. RAINBOW! yeah bitch rainbow., whatchu got on dat. datz wuz goooooooood! hahahah. picked up jon, came home, everyone was in my fucking room smoking with logan, so me & kt figured mikey & them hos wanted to play room swap. so we went all fucking out, we turned EVERYTHING around, i mean the couch, the rug, the poster, the bass, the amp, the tv, the clock, the x box, EVERYTHING. hahaha it looked so funny, we almost peed. YEAH theeen we went & delivered weed for logan to bun & drove all the way to the other side of town, i'm talkin ghetto! to see bun, where he lives now at his sisters. then came home agian, watched detroit rock city. katie & jon left. me & logans went to bed. best 4:20 ever, i will never for get that day. i love kt. &HAPPY BIRTHDAY HITLER, WE LOVEEEEEEEEE YOU!!!! <3

missababyx @ 2007-04-18T19:52:00

2007-04-19T02:57:20Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!
happy birthdaaaaaay to you.
happy birthdaaaay to katie leee-e.
happy birthday to youuuuuuu!!

I LOVE YOU PRINCESS.
hope you had a great day, witch i know you did cause you saw me.
though you didnt get my birthday cake, but you will, I MEAN IF I DIDN'T HAVE TO SIT IN THE SALON FOR 5 HOURRRRRRRS, i would have had time to make it, but you know, girls gotta do what a girls gotta do to look fresh! hahah. :]

anyways, i'll HIT YOU UP tomarrrow home girl.
i love you. happy birthday.

p.s how does it feel to be 18?! <3

oh & on another note, missa's no blonde anymore.

missababyx @ 2007-04-15T13:26:00

2007-04-15T20:37:59Z

KARMAS A BITCH! hahaha bitch. :]
anyyyyyways, i love logan, i get my hair did on the 18th. the 18th is also kts birthday!
MY NIGGAS GUNNA BE 18! oh snap. tonight were going to bbq at my grandmas. i've lost 7 pounds. yep, that's right, & i'm running everyday. I WILL BE FIT FOR THE SUMMER. i don't have a job anymore, cause some bullshit got said & that's no more, so no money for a while, but i will have a car soon & i will be making bank.

my birthday is coming up soon, I WILL BE 18 YEARS OLD, that means it's time to get my life started & i have a few goals to achieve by then, i'm actually going somewhere in life, even with all the bullshit i have been through in the past two years, with my stupid fucking dope head dad, the boys & hooks in my life, the house i lost, the lifestyle i lost, the friends i have lost, the ones I MEAN ONE i realized is actually worth a fuck is the only one i need, & want in life. everything turned out alright, i have logan, i have family, i have my kt, & i have happiness it don't get much better then that. that's for sure.

i'm done rambling.
peace.

missababyx @ 2007-04-07T19:22:00

2007-04-08T02:23:26Z

logan took me shopping today. i got really cute clothes, i'm spoiled & my boyfriend loves me, beat that bitch. :]

missababyx @ 2007-04-06T16:59:00

2007-04-07T00:22:26Z

I haveeeeee so many pictures & so much to talk about. first is mine & logans trip to califronia! ohman it was amazing, so much fun, &just so nice to just be us. saturday morning we left it took us 3 hours ish to get to my aunts, we went out to lunch with my cousins. & then got ready for the sator, haha it was the first time for logan to do any of that. & it was pretty funny. then we went to my cousin naomis house & camped out on the floor & watched empire records. i love that movie! anyways, then fell asleep.

woke up early as fuck & took my cousin zack & went to venice! i got us lost, haha but we mad it. we were there for 6 fucking hours. i got sunburnt as hell. but it was worth it, we got matching hemp bracelets. this thing made out of hard sand with our names on it, reALLY cute earings, logan got a pipe, a bad brains shirt & i got shorts that say high life on the butt. MILLER HIGH LIFE that is. :]

YEP & then we took our shoesez off & went to the beach, it was so nice, logan didnt want to, but he did cause i wouldnt stop begging, the water was so nice, man i didnt want to leave, anyways. we left & drove to lancaster, where zack & my other aunt live, logan got some bud, we stayed for dinner, i road his quad for like 2 hours, & him & logan sat there & watched me & blazed. then my other cousin brian & his girlfriend invited us to their appartment to get druuuunk & spend the night, we played hella drinking games, & had a blast. then had IN N OUT. mmmm bomb.

woke up next mornin & came home. :[
nowwwwwww, heres a whole bunch of pictures. YAY!

lunch :]

holding my newest lil cousin for the first time, i was more sacred then he was. hahaha.

hahah the best part of passover.

logan likes this one.

some crazy negro on venice.

<3

lil cutieeee.

thats my sunburn :[ ! ^

my arms are to short to get all of him.

he does a better job.

i love this one.

this is my cousin zack.

shadows.

missababyx @ 2007-03-29T13:56:00

2007-03-29T20:57:00Z

HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY! :D

missababyx @ 2007-03-28T15:17:00

2007-03-28T22:19:21Z

TOMARROW WILL BE MINE & LOGANS 8 MONTHS!!!!!!
geez la weez. it feels so nice to know this one will actually work out. :]
to all of you who said we wouldn't make it, psh. fuck you!

missababyx @ 2007-03-26T11:31:00

2007-03-26T18:38:48Z

this weekend was so busy, friday was buns birthday, he's finally 18! yay. katie was suppose to comeover so we could make him a cake but dithed me, BITCH. anyyyways, saturday me & logan went to dinner with my grandparents at loanstar. we were suppose to go to olive garden but that place was fucking packed & we didnt feel like waiting an hour. then last night we had dinner at his dads. DJ CAME OVER, cause he heard logan had blonde hair. hahah. i thought that was funny. it's beeen like a year since i seen that lil fucker. he looks good & he's off drugs.

today we have a birthday party to go to at CHUCK E CHEESE!! my favorite place. yeah
&tomarro nicole is taking me shopping. :]

friday we leave for orange county, to see my family & have passover, for all of you who don't know it's a jewish holiday. & then on sunday were going to disneyland!!!!!!!!

missababyx @ 2007-03-14T16:24:00

2007-03-14T23:28:53Z

I GOT THE JOB.
logan got his truck registered yesterday, it's driveable! yay.
i drove agian today, pulled in & parked perfecccct! i miss kt, but she comes over today when logan gets off work so he can see JUSTIN FIGGGGGGGGG cause he gets out today! & jon.
today is good.

missababyx @ 2007-03-13T18:21:00

2007-03-14T01:28:41Z

I feel better, my head hurts sometimes, but i deal.
katie came & got me to go to wallmart with her, & then we got jon, & then I DROVE HOME & PARKEDDDDDD! hahaha. momma said i was going really fast, but me & katie didnt think so, i couldnt stop laughing, it was so much fun, her car is way better then grandmas, & i think jon was scared.

YEAHHH WOHOOO! YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!. oh yeah.

i might mostlikely almost have a job.
it would be a really good one to cause i love kids right.
so like buns sister really needs a babysitter cause their unhappy with the one they have & i would be getting paid 20 bucks a day, 100 bucks a week. be able to stay at home, & they would bring her to me, it would be perfect, i hope it works out! :]

today is a good day, yeahhhhhh!
i'm happy. mhm.

missababyx @ 2007-03-11T16:06:00

2007-03-11T23:08:39Z

i've never been in so much pain, whatever the fuck a sinus infection is, it fucking sucks, & hurts like nothing else, dosent go away & let me say this agian.. HUUUUUUUUUUURTS so bad :[ !

me jon & katie went to chuck e cheese & i just now figured out the scanner.

2007-03-08T22:42:09Z

missababyx @ 2007-03-08T11:37:00

2007-03-08T19:51:37Z

UPPPPPPPPPPPPDATE.

me & logan have a new room, we took grandmas room & she took ours, it's so much better. it's SOOOOOO big, i have a closet! witch is a must for me, i was dying with out one, but now i have one, so i no dying anymore. it's pretty cool how we painted it. one wall is black & white stripes. the wall opposite from that is black with white polkadots. & then one wall is red & the opposite wall form that is red. :D we now have a QUEEEN, keep in mind we were both sleeping on a full futon mattress, & then befor that a lil ass twin, so a queen is a big deal to us. haha.

jon & katie have there own bed for when we have sleepovers, i know it's cute. :]
YESSSSSSSSSS & logan get his truck tomarrow, hopefully.

i'm still fucking sick, shit sucks, & that's all. i'm over live journal, but please listen to katie just stop it.
your not fucking bob marley. GIVE IT UPPP!

fuck bitches, i only have one friend, & really she's all i need. i'm okay with it. seriously.

missababyx @ 2007-02-15T19:55:00

2007-02-16T04:02:17Z

logans 18th birthday is tomarrow. i'm taking him to go see ghost rider.

today me & katie were running around ALL OVER like chickens with our heads cut off, we kidnaped mogley & used his house JUST to try & make logan bud brownies, but we did it, so woo hoo too us!

saturday were having a party for the birthday boy.

LIFE IS SO GOOOD.
time to watch greys anatomy!
sorry katie your not here to join me.

valentines day!

2007-02-15T04:31:07Z

so amazing doesnt even cut it but anyways, logan spoiled the shit out of me. i spoild him also! i know i know, were cute. so the day went like this. me logan, katie, & jon double dated. we went to sweet tomatoes. that shit was bomb, jon enjoyed his grapes. hahah. theeeeen we saw the messangers :]

YEEEEEP. over all my day was spent with the ones that mean most. & i wouldnt have had it any other way! i even got on birth control. hahah.

& as you can see.

his, obviously.

mines!

reminder: smile always, love life!

missababyx @ 2007-02-08T23:22:00

2007-02-09T07:25:36Z

tonight was really fun. me logan katie & jon did nothing but sit on our ass & be lazzy, it's okay thought cause the boys were drinking, & me & katie were watching greys anatomy. then we were off to ihop. it was bomb, now i'm really full, & have to go pack.

i'm leaving for california with my grandparents tomarrow.
i'll be there for a few days.
i'm going ot miss logan but i can do this, even thought we really don't need time apart. i'll prolly be calling him every hour. :[

missababyx @ 2007-02-04T18:25:00

2007-02-05T02:27:30Z

we got internet back, now i can be updated.
CIRCLE JERKS WAS AMAZING. i duno about the 3 hour bus ride home but oh well. hahah.
i've been in bed all day, my cramps are killing me.
fuck.

missababyx @ 2007-01-16T10:42:00

2007-01-16T18:52:24Z

i've been feeling really good lately, livi really needed me yesterday so i came over & we h ad a girl day, it was fun, as always.

i had the sudden urge to make everything right with cassie, so i messaged her, scared as fuck, she was alot nicer then i thought she would be, i think we'll be okay, she's not alright, that makes me worry but i know she will pull through. i'm so hap[ppy she's givving me a nother chance, a chance to make everything alright atleast befor she moves to az. i think a half of me will hurt a lot & miss her more then ever. but i know she needs this. & i'm so happy for her, i just wish we wouldnt have ever gotten in to it, i'm a shitty person, i don't even know how i could have done anything to hurt her, whatever. i'm just glad she can forgive me, 2 & a half years is wayyyy too much to just throw away.

i've never been with, & been this happy constantly, & actually feel loved, it's so nice i wouldnt change it for the world, i really think me & logan will get married, & his family, & I MEAN THE WHOLE THING, to babys, to aunts, to friends of the family & grandparents. love me. god, i couldnt be more happy with life right now. I AM SO LUCKY! HOW DID I GET THIS LUCKY?!@ thank you, god.

so that's about it, ummm eddie's making me breakfast, so i have to go eat it.
bye.
love, marissa.
<3